So yeah.. computer stopped charging.. that was fun.

Vincent said something interesting to me today.

 He sent me some music, and I said.. do they remind you of us?
and he goes, not every song is supposed to be our song..

so I've been sitting on that for a while.

it brings ease, for some reason... and obviously it makes me happy =)

Other than that, I bought a magic jack because he asked me to. It should be better for when I'm at home and he can talk.

I'm taking meds now.. effexor and roserem.. Neither of them seem to be working, but i'll give it some more time. The sleep aid I'm going to the dr for tomorrow because its not helping. at all.

Yeah.. my body is starting to hurt.. back, etc.

I dont have much of an update other than that.

I love him.

Slight recap

I... have been working - a lot -

14 days straight, mind you. Sunday was day 14, and it was a 12 hour shift.
I can't let them keep pulling at me like that.
 
in case anyone was wondering, I'm saving up for a trip to Italy in the fall, to see Vincent.

I'm gonna try to do a day of OT a week, if not more.. although I realized that I was almost to the point of working being the death of me and I really didn't want that. but it was semi-fun while it lasted. I'm getting recognized for everything I've been doing - mostly by my boss - and ya know thats great and everything but money would mean more. Not even that, just a better 'status' which right now I have as much credibility as everyone else which is by far the worst thing... ever since I do about 5x as much work as everyone else.

I think I need to see a dr. hopefully I can get something for my lack of sleep and i'm feeling alittle depressed again.. but this happend the last time Vinny left too.. but I can't just keep feeling sad every time he or I leave each other. It's not healthy, esp cause it lasts a few months each time..

I got his birthday present, and I'm gonna mail it - probably tomorrow -
I got him God of War 2, since he played the
first one while he was home. One of the last nights he was home... for 5 hours straight.. haha.
He hasn't been getting on the internet lately =( so i've been spending more money so i can call his cellphone .. because i kinda need him, honestly... =/
 but yeah thats pretty much it. I'm getting a replacement for my phone tomrorow because its shutting off and things which sucks.. I'm probably just gonna get a new phone when they come out. I was thinking of getting a Motorolla Q9c, or a blackberry Curve but I'm not sure yet.
I dunno if i want the data feature or not since its $45 a month...

but that is all.
- Casey